inanimate

the. middle. finger.

I am a pretty cautious person. I am a rule follower for the most part. I lead a fairly quiet life. I avoid trouble at all costs! I don't enjoy confrontation and I certainly don't like to be the one confronting.

Well, as I was driving home from the hospital in Boston tonight, I did something to really make someone in downtown Boston mad.

We're talking:

middle finger
furious horn honking
roll down the window screaming

Yeah, Mr Mass. lic# 139-*** was M-A-D at me!!

Want to know what I did?

It was REALLY bad. I mean, clearly by his reaction I was murdering a small child.

Right.

Well, people, I had the audacity to....wait for it...let a parked car pull in front of me. We were at a stop light so I nicely stayed back a little and waved the driver on.

The man behind me? lic # 139-*** pulled up really closely to the back of my car, laid on his horn for what felt like 5 minutes at the red light. He got in the lane next to me as quickly as he could and did the above.

I went home and told my dad. His response? "Pray for him"

*grumble* grumble* grumble*

I may or may not have had to repent and ask for the Lord's forgiveness for the thoughts about Mr. lic #139-*** running through my head while driving. :p

here I sit

I'm dog sitting this week ,which I love. I love the quiet and house to myself for a couple days. I love that I can sit in front of the tv at night and watch what I want to watch. It's nice. It's ok to be selfish once in a while and enjoy being alone. Sometimes it's needed for sanity!

Yet, while I sit here I am annoyed. Annoyed at people. Annoyed at Syncope. Annoyed a doctors. Annoyed at the medical field. Annoyed at people who just can't figure it out.

Retraining the brain is NOT working, people. It's not. End of story. In fact my BIL is WORSE off than before all the meds and "retraining".

I'm annoyed at jumping at every noise I hear because I think he has fainted again. I can't tell you how many times I have flown down my stairs at night, jumped up from my computer, felt my heart in my stomach at the slightest noise.

I hate finding him on the ground. I hate that every time he faints, it gets harder to wake him up. I hate that my sister is home by herself. I hate what this all means for her. I HATE IT!

How is it that no one can figure this out? World renown doctors and nothing? Not acceptable.

I'm sorry; I'm just frustrated. My BIL is currently on his way to a hospital in Boston after being in the ER (where we live) tonight .

Yet, and hear me because I believe this, if I were to give up, if we were to give up, saying we can't do it, we'd be giving up on the Lord. We'd be telling Him He has given us too much. He promises to not give us more than we can handle. When we tell Him it's too much, we tell Him He went back on His Word.

So we choose to continue to follow the path the Lord has paved. I'll continue to be annoyed every now and then. At the end of the day, we still rejoice in God our Savior. But it's not always easy.

sleep & wall makeover

today I woke up wondering what time I could go to bed tonight! haha. In fact, I do this quite often. All I can ever think about in the morning is how tired I am, whether I have time to take a nap later, and how little time I have alotted myself to get out the door in a presentable fashion. Showering the night before has saved my life several times. Or maybe it's just saved others' eyes and noses. hardy har har...like that? I'm laughing at my own joke. I usually am the one laughing at the people who laugh at themselves.

Moving on..... let's see, I must have some pictures to post...

I went to Pier 1 yesterday and purchased two new things for the walls in my bedroom.

Obviously, as seen above, I love to laugh.

I bought this "laugh" sign made of wrought iron....

And purchased some ribbon to wrap the letters and use to hang my pictures

Next up for only $10

And just to give you an idea of where I put it-right above my unmade bed

The end.

Still Kickin'

Still alive around these parts. I feel like I have been so absent from the blog world. I am behind on reading and writing. Eh well!

Have successfully completed one week of The Shred. My quads feel like they are on fire still. Thanks to my workout buddy, Hilary, I have stayed motivated! I would have been MORE than happy to put it off for weeks if we weren't doing it together. Thanks, Hilary!!

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I am still waiting to hear about another part-time job. Administrative Assistant. Still up in the air about what I think, but I am trusting the Lord's timing for work and school.

Speaking of school, I was supposed to start grad school last week, but for some reason my class was dropped. I'm a little annoyed because I am anxious to get going. I start in late March now.

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The health in the house has not been real good. If you have been reading here for a bit, you know my BIL, Mike, has been struggling with fainting for no reason or warning. He has seen world renown doctors who can't figure it out. We are trying to retrain his brain. Whatever that means.

The fainting has increased, unfortunately. In fact, he fainted sitting down the other night, which has not happened since this started in October. His headaches (everyday) are still at pain levels of 8/10 a good portion of the time. My sister remains at home (in Ohio) because she has to work. My BIL's doctors are here, in Boston.

Not fun.

My brother's seizures have also been increasing. He is going through some medicine changes, but that always take a significant amount of time. Like months.

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We are reminded every day of the Lord's goodness and His hand in each situation. We fear things like Mike smacking his head on something and killing himself. It's a fear we have give to the Lord because the anxiety alone is enough to put you over the edge.

Habakkuk 3:18-19
"yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
He enables me to go on the heights.

get your kicks on route 66 asics

Had to get new sneaks for my Jillian beatings workouts.

break from all the jillian talk

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Day Three Thoughts

Alarm at 7am:

Thinking:
I really have to go downstairs and go to the bathroom. Can I move? I'm afraid to move. You just have to move or you are going to pee your pants from all that water you drank last night. I CAN move, and I am not in that much pain. yet.

Wow, that really hurt getting down to the toilet. How the heck am I going to get up? Thank goodness we have one of those higher toilets!

Not so sore all day!! Even made a snowman at work that was taller than me.

Workout at 7pm

Thinking:

Jill, how on earth am I supposed to kick myself in the butt with buttkicks? I can't get my heels to my butt and I have a big butt.

Are those rolls on Jill's stomach? Oh wait, that's just excess skin.

I must be delirious from the pain.

It Was Time

to meet with Jillian Michaels again.

She really missed me.

So much that she thought I deserved pain.

A lot of pain.

Pain that I know is going to be worse tomorrow.

Back in May 2009, I conquered the 30 Day Shred. I consider myself a Shred Survivor.

Since I stopped working out with Jill (I can call her that because we are so tight. Tight like my muscles today) she has been telling me I NEED to come back.

Back to experience her pain.

Boy am I feeling it tonight.

And it's only day 2.

Thank goodness I know it gets better! Not easier. Just less painful after day 4 or 5.

Or is it day 30?

SOOO thankful for my workout friend, Hilary, who is in pain with me!

Random Ponderings

Why is it that women can wear blue without question but when men wear pink salmon they get harassed?

What if our weight fluctuated like our bank accounts? I'd be really motivated to spend money, I'll tell you that!

Why on God's green earth does dark chocolate taste SO flippin' good?!

What good does the bitter cold do for us?

Homemade 2

This was originally a gift until I messed up the crimping beads and now it's too short to give away. So I'll wear it! :)

happy graduation to me

well, I have to hand it to you, Guessers! Nice job! The first correct guess was by Sami over at Sailor and Company. She thought the picture in the post below was a lens cap...and it is!





Arizona Mama guessed the correct brand!

I'd been saving and then wanted to put my graduation money toward one. I decided to go with a used one. I know I didn't need to get such a nice one, but I wanted room to grow. Plus, I found a good deal that came with a lens and accidental warranty. WIN WIN!

So without further adieu...

You know, I really should have done a giveaway. However, I would have had a hard time deciding whether to award Arizona Mama or Sami...

Camera bag (from Etsy) that already has dog hair on it. Shocking, I know.


Strap, also Etsy



And since it can't take a picture of itself... I present to you my slightly used Canon 40D with 28-135mm lens.


I have no idea what I'm doing! :)

A Reveal

Can you tell what I got?

*Update...man, you all are good!! Post coming soon to reveal!

Not Me! Monday

*edit...I DID do one last week. I guess it was so boring even I forgot about it! ha!

I do believe I missed this last week...mostly because I tried to come up with something but was lacking in anything interesting. May be the case this week also. Guess you'll be the judge.

Here we go. Check out MckMama's site for more Not Me's!



During the Super Bowl I did not sleep through the first and second quarter.

I did not bring a book with me to my aunt's for the Super Bowl, knowing full well I was not just there for the family gathering and food.

When told I had been sick this past week the following did not come out of my mouth "I was NOT! What came out of my nose was clear-every time! Not green!"

At a friend's house over the weekend I did not have to sit out of the hot tub twice in the course of 1/2 hour because I will literally faint if I stay in for more than 15 minutes at a time. Thanks to low blood pressure I guess. Party pooper.

When I went to turn the little heater on in my room after church it did not read 45 degrees- INSIDE-in my bedroom!!! brrrrr

I certainly don't currently have a wet bathing suit and towel sitting in my overnight bag. Probably smelling moldy...I always unpack the minute I walk through the door!

That's all folks!

little something I made tonight

Just a little different focus

Obviously I made the bracelet, not the ring. I showcased the ring here.